Ricardo's Birthday

Well Ricardo's birthday was November 5, 2008, he would have been 20 years old. I am sure that God celebrates everyones birthdays in heaven. I am sure he had the best time. I wanted to write on Wednesday, but I just couldn't do it. I did not work that day, I probably will never work again on the 5th of November. We went to the cemetary and left flowers and said some prayers, but what prayers does my son really need, we are the ones that need the prayers not him. Everyday I ask for strength from Jesus and I know that he gives it to me, but there are times I just am so tired of everything and everyone. I miss my Beluga so much. I guess I have to wait until its my turn to leave this world, I just hope that I am good enough to join him where he is.